Do you ever find yourself waiting for life to begin?

Each of us begins life with a blank slate that is guided for us until we begin to wonder. 

Who am I?

What do I need?

When can I make my own choices?

Where am I going?

And why are there so many questions that need answers?

Today, I understand that by quieting the noise surrounding me, I can feel who I am, what I need to do, and where I need to go.

Questions come from a place of wonder. 

Answers fill the void when I pause and unpack the wonder to understand its purpose. 

The purpose isn’t always clear because sometimes it comes directly through me, like an old habit. Sometimes it appears as something I’ve written. Then there are times when I’m walking along, taking a shower, or simply talking to myself, and there is a sudden moment of - oh yeah, that’s the answer.

There have been times when my questions did come from a place of wonder yet from a place of Why? Why do I have to do, feel, and be this way when it makes no sense to the core of who I am supposed to be

Wonder is part of why and why not.

Wonder isn’t part of “but what if.

Over time, I have grabbed onto an array of wonder, providing me with many endearing moments and memories. Still, I have flushed a lot of wonder down the toilet because of the worry that I’ve attached to the “but what if” instead of embracing the wonder of why not.

Life will be in session until my final breath, and it’s up to me to continue to ask questions and lean into the magic of the awkward, wonderful life ahead of me.

Will you join me?

©2023 Alison Schuh Hawsey